Our hearts ached for children. After a scary, unexpected and emotional pregnancy journey, our prayers were answered when we learned of Charlie and Wylie!! Our nerves were on edge, our minds were constantly in prayer and our hearts were so thankful... all at the same time! Every moment of that pregnancy was (and still is) hard to verbalize. One minute I was crippled with butterflies in ultrasound rooms and the next I was crying tears of joy to feel them move inside me. Today, I can honestly say, their pregnancy is more vivid to me than the other 2 little loves that would later grace our family!!
6 years ago...
6 years ago I never realized how my love my heart could hold for two children. I couldn't fully understand what people meant when they said they "fell in love at first sight". I thought I knew. I didn't. Not until I stared at 2 precious blessings laying in NICU beds did I understand that fully.
6 years ago I never realized that so many minutes of my evening would be spent staring at sleeping babies. Even today, I love to secretly go upstairs and just watch them sleep. They are so innocent, so precious and so MINE!! That is one of the thoughts I say over and over as I stare... those are my babies. Those babies are little parts of me and Bubs and those babies are mine. Selfish sounding I know, but I love being their momma and I love that they call ME momma!!
6 years ago I never realized that so many of my daily thoughts would be thoughts about my kids. Thinking about them learning their letters and numbers, thinking about who they were sitting with at lunch, thinking about what they were proud of from the day, thinking about how I was going to accomplish their grand request in a feasible manner, thinking about how I was going to have fun with them on boring days... I knew I would think about them, I just didn't realize it would be all.the.time!!
But 6 years ago, our lives changed in a blessed way. Just replaying it in my head is incredible to me. On February 6th, 2008, I went from being a girl to being a mommy ... in 1 minute - from 7:47 am to 7:48 am, I was doubly blessed. The blessing of Charlie and Wylie were precious on that day and still today remain 2 of my biggest blessings!
Sweet Babies,
Please stay my babies forever! While I know you will grow taller and I know you will get older, please stay my babies. Please still want me to be around you, make crafts with you, listen to you read, make me silly hidden notes and run unexpectedly at me with surprise hugs. Please remember that more prayers than you can ever imagine were lifted up for you and that you are special babies. You are blessings and you are gifts. Always know you claimed our hearts from the first moment we knew you existed! Without you are lives would never be complete. Your daddy and I fall more in love with you everyday. Please always know that too.
May this birtday be the best yet! We love you dearly, madly and deeply!
Lots and Lots,
Mommy
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