Pampered and Proud

For as long as I live, I will be so thankful for Mother's Day.  

I am pretty sure I will never forget the indescribable feelings of emptiness and total sadness I once felt on the Mother's Days when I so badly wanted to be a mommy but for some unknown reason was unable to have it happen!  I thought it was the lowest of the low of days.  Miserable.  

But my how miraculous life turns out when you just trust the Lord to follow His plan not yours!! 

While it was fabulous being woken up to a hot coffee and my favorite omelette, my Mother's Day was so much more!  So many times throughout the day, I kept reminding myself that this really wasn't a day when I should be celebrated or pampered.  Actually, it was a day when I should be constantly thanking the Lord that I was ever able to have these sweet babies.  And even still, a day when I should have been saying "thank you" to my 4 little loves because they are the reason I am a mommy.  

The heartfelt presents made by their little hands will forever be timeless and priceless to me.  The stories about me, what I like to do and what they consider "fun" things we do brought tears to my eyes and smiles to my face!  

This year, I "guided" Bubs to do something I had read about.  The article I read was called "No More Mother's Day Cards".  The idea behind this idea was that from this moment on, there would be no more mother's day cards.  Instead, there would be a Mother's Day Journal.  Each year, the children write in their own handwriting sweet notes and pictures instead of buying cards to give me.  

While I am pretty sure he thinks that having him do this was the silliest thing ever, Bubs came through and helped the kids all write me a sweet Mother's Day note for 2014.  

Each note melted my heart in a different way!  I treasure the innocent handwriting, the invented spellings and the flares of personality that came out in each note!   

My No More Mother's Day Card Journal has begun and I can't wait to go back and  reread it each year on this day!  

I had already prepped the kids for the fact that we would be taking special pictures for mom on this day!  No one was thrilled, except me!  Hence the 2 photos that are the best I got!!  

The amount of thankfulness in my heart for the chance to be a mommy is so large and so immense, no words will ever do it justice.  Each day is another experience in this journey.  

Not every day is smiles and giggles.  There are days of frustration, exhaustion and chaos.  Those are the days I beat myself up for not doing things as a mom better.  But, after a while, I remember I am human.  Everyone has to sleep every once in a while.  Everyone has to sit down every now and then!  I have to remind myself, that being a good mommy is more than having a spic and span floor.  Some days it is about the soccer cleat prints that are covering it.  I have to remind myself that laundry won't walk away but the day when I am asked to play hair dresser  or hide in a tent with a three year old will.  

These crazy moments and moments of chaos are what I prayed.  

And for all the money and riches in the world, I wouldn't change a day of it!  

To my sweet babies,  I hope you know that with every fiber of my being I love you unconditionally.  My world revolves around your happiness and joy.  You are blessings, my greatest blessings.  I pray that you one day realize how your being in my life is a gift and a miracle.  I pray that you always feel loved and in the arms of safety when you are with me.  You are my world.  My days are brightened by your sweet faces, hugs and words!  Forever and ever amen, you are my babies to love, cherish and nourish!  You can rest assured, with every ounce of your soul, I will always love you! 

Lots and Lots! 

Mommy