Sunday, February 19, 2012

Almost By Myself

You read that title right.  Here I am on a rainy Sunday afternoon and I am almost completely alone.  I just spent the last 10 minutes snuggling and rocking Ben to sleep and now… there is nothing but silence.    Seriously, all I hear is the hum of the fridge behind me.  Even after the kids are asleep at night, I hear more than this. 

And even though I have loads of laundry waiting on me, bathrooms to be cleaned and plenty of furniture to dust, I am about to do absolutely nothing.  I am about to wrap myself in a blanket, sit in Bubba’s chair and watch a pointless TV show.  

I love being a mom with every ounce of my being but sometimes I forget what is is like to just be alone.  I feel extremely guilty finding even a small dose of pleasure in the fact that everyone except a sleeping baby is gone for just a quick few hours.  I don’t feel like it is fair for me to just sit and do nothing when there is so much to be done or that I am using my time the best way I should.  So this is my self saying that surely out there on this rainy Sunday afternoon there are other mothers doing exactly what I am about to do-  just be and do nothing! 

I am sure once I am sucked into BRAVO or E  I will somehow manage!

1 comment:

Libba and Lewis said...

I was one of those mommies too! It was a great day to do nothing! And you of all people certainly deserve an afternoon like that!!