A Ball of Nerves

Shortly after finding out I was pregnant with Bailey Baby #4, I came home one day to discover my mom had somehow slipped one of the best books under my pillow for me to find.  

Every week, I love getting to read my spot in this book.  Each week, this book highlights what is the major development in the baby by using Bible verses and a special prayer for the baby.  It is amazing how each week the verse seems so perfect and just what I need to hear! 

Tomorrow I am 17 weeks.  I have my anatomy ultrasound tomorrow afternoon.  Needless to say, I am beyond freaking out!  I hate with every morsel of my being having to go “upstairs” for any appointment.  The high risk doctors are knowledgeable and experts in their fields, but no amount of smart that they throw my way can take away the anxiousness and nervousness I have been feeling for the past month when this appointment was scheduled- or the nerves that I have about tomorrow. 

So, since my thoughts lately have been totally consumed by tomorrow’s appointment, I thought it was a much needed moment of relaxation to read my book tonight. 

The verses used for this week are:

A cheerful look brings joy to the heart.    Proverbs 15:30

How perfect is that?  Tomorrow I get to see,  for 1 whole hour,  this little one inside of me.  All I can think about is all of the “what if’s” that I might hear.  Instead, I was reminded tonight to be thankful and joyful about getting to see this one rather than dreading the moment! 

The second verse couldn’t be more perfect.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  Psalm 139:14

Again, since I truly believe these words, nothing could be written more perfectly.  Especially for this week, my nerves and my thoughts.  

While I know beyond a shadow of a doubt I will walk onto the 4th floor of Presbyterian tomorrow with my heart pounding, clenching Bubba’s arm and constantly saying my prayers, I hope I am granted peace and can marvel at the amazement of the moment and truly enjoy seeing this new life we can’t wait to meet!